Sweeter than chocolate

Manchmal, wenn mein Herz außer sich ist, fließen die Worte leichter auf Englisch.

What I need today

What I need now

is forgiveness.

Chocolate

can do many things,

but chocolate

cannot forgive.

Today,

again,

I have lost control

I lost patience

I screamed at my children

and I know that it scared them.

I scared them.

And if I go now

to the kitchen closet

for some chocolate (or more)

I know it will not help

because chocolate

cannot forgive.

So, instead of chocolate

I will seek grace today,

go back to the beginning again

Climb up the hill

where my Savior died for me.

With an empty mouth

with empty hands

and my heart, so heavy and burdened,

He will take me in his arms.

So I lift my eyes up to the hill

with the cross,

where my help comes from

and receive

- not chocolate –

but something so much sweeter.

I open my mouth

for a word of healing

and taste

forgiveness.

As he feeds me love

and grace

I find comfort

today

not in chocolate.